i have not been updating for quite a looooooooooooong time. the o's explains that ive not been updating for quite a while. i've been missing out on alot of things. i couldn't even remember when was the last time i saw my other bunch of friends. i've been pretty busy with stuff. school has always been on the top of my priority list, family and so on. school has been great for me, well i guess it was. improved alot than last year. last year i scored 0.4 for my GPA! wtf right? i know. and now, i scored 2.4 for the current term exams and for cumulative i got 1.5. not that great, but to me, i think i did better and im starting to understand the path to success.

i have always thought that studies was not really important or what so ever. to me, all i need was entertainment, fun, freedom and shits. you know what i mean. but now, as i grow older, i start to think wiser. don't believe? better believe it. freedom doesnt lead us anywhere. the key to success is to be disciplined, committment and foocuse. without any of these, theres no way we are going to see the light of our future instead, we are going to see darkness. which pretty much means failure. like duh!

i need to start planning and thinking, that means less slacking more studying. yes, i hope i could make it through. i wanna be a good man in the future. i wanna be a responsible head of family. i dont wanna go around asking for help from my family members or friends. i dont wanna grow up living in the slumps. please god, i wanna be a good guy, i swear i do. ahhhhhh! i dont wanna be a failure in life. i feel as if im one now. no matter what, i'll get back on my feet as quick as possible and mend the problems by myself.

for now, im starting this new thing in life. something i never did before. im trying to live in a healthy lifestyle by going to gym for at least 3 times a week. yes! i did. ive already went to the gym for like 3 weeks now and im starting to feel great! and yay, i think my aunt is going to buy a weight gainer for me. something that helps to gain weight rapidly. but, at the same time, we have to work out or else the muscles will turn to fats. i mean serious business man. i hope to have a beautiful body, maybe in the future. woo! haha.

i have a lot of people to thank to, for always helping me and guiding me in life. teaching me the pros and cons of life. my late mum, the most patient women ive ever seen. the one who taught me patience in life. no matter what the obstacle may be, stay strong and be patient. things will always go smoothly if youre patient. my aunt, the most supportive women ever. the one who has always been supporting me in whatever i do, the one who will always be there in times of failure or success. my late grandmother, the most loving and caring women ever. the one who is always loving me no matter how bad i am. the one who always tells me, " fahmi, please don't go home late okay.", "whose gonna wake you up im when im gone?''. she's my sweetest love, the one who always wakes me up every morning.

my honey, the most lovable and understanding girl ever. the one who will always be there for me. the one who guides me to the right path. the one who tells me never to stop trying and the one who shows me true love which i never knew before. last and not least, the rest of my family and friends who has been constantly supporting me. who has always been there for me in times of need. i love you all, with my deepest gratitude. thank you guys so fucking much. you're the best ever! till here. :)