Thursday, July 30, 2009
turn.
life always has its turning point. everyone just has to go through it. every single one of us single minded fools has to go through it. that is just how life is supposed to be. at a certain point of time, you will realise that you are just wasting your fucking life on what you are not supposed to do and what you are supposed to do. feeling me? you just have to accept life as it is. we must learn to embrace it before it swallows us up. look at the rational side of it and then you will realise of how important it is. never look back, thats has always been the problem. looking back. whats there to look back for?
moving on. moving forward. forget the past, you might not know what the future has in store for you. righ? cherish your fucking life, start something new. something you have never tried before. something fresh. you can't just sit back and relax and you expect something great or awesome to happen to you. its all about the effort. its all about trying and more trying, perservere your way through. you will find that it isn't that hard isn't it? you just have to be brave to face incoming challenges of life. may it be bad, hard or how cruel it is. face it with patience. and there you go, life is just as easy as ABC.
Wednesday, July 29, 2009
TSTJ
tight shirt, tighter jeans owns la mafucks!
the event, EXPOSE! where they showcase great talents in music and fashion. i made great new friends here. oh yeah i did. some cool people, us against sophia, shush!, love lust something.(no offence guys, your name is too long). haha. and some other people too. friendly people. of different ages and different genres. woowee! though there was not many people, every single one of us still enjoyed the day with one anothers jokes and shits apart from the eating session in the end.
great job everyone! especially to fiza and gang for putting up a successful event. not only you gain, we gained too by making new friends. and to us against sophia, we'll exchange our shirt okay? coolness! haha. just wait up! haha. see everyone pretty soon. although we have just met and only get to meet for like a day, i already missed you guys. so, that means see you soon. bye! bye!
Monday, July 27, 2009
brutalasfuck.
Singapore is a place which needs more brutality. please come down and raise hell here. ruin this fucking place. aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
think life is short?
make it big you twit.
life isnt't always right.
you've gotta make it.
keep em' drugged up.
oh, i wanna be just like you,
chill yet still the real deal
Peter Doherty.
i've spend most of my life wandering around the streets, wasting my time slacking and doing things that would land me in trouble. a year ago, i get to know a special person, a girl. to me seems special, but to you may not. a girl who has taught me alot. you have seen these kind of post alot of times right? im not trying to let you readers go, "woah, this guy is sweet." or "man, this is just sweet talks." but. instead i would like you people to know of how fortunate i am.
this girl has helped me to get back on top, ship shape. being a good guy was never a choice for me until she came. the one who always takes care of me whenever im sick, the one who always scolds me whenever im wrong, the one who always kisses me to tell me she loved me. that girl is my gf, nisa. im feeling sad, as she has been sick for the past few days. it makes me feel rather down to see her so weak. it makes me sad to see her sick.
honey, get well soon okay. so that we can spend our time together . spend our time laughing our asses off, pinching and squeezing one anothers cheeks. ive always felt secured around you. i wish that this would never come to an end. i will do anyhting in my power to make this relationship as beautiful as the rainbow. for now, get well soon. i know youre craving for something, shaker fries! hee. we'll eat that tohgether once you're well okay. rest well, eat your medicines and stop being stubborn. i'll pray for your well being. get well soon hun! i love you, yes i do.
Sunday, July 26, 2009
exalt.
i have not been updating for quite a looooooooooooong time. the o's explains that ive not been updating for quite a while. i've been missing out on alot of things. i couldn't even remember when was the last time i saw my other bunch of friends. i've been pretty busy with stuff. school has always been on the top of my priority list, family and so on. school has been great for me, well i guess it was. improved alot than last year. last year i scored 0.4 for my GPA! wtf right? i know. and now, i scored 2.4 for the current term exams and for cumulative i got 1.5. not that great, but to me, i think i did better and im starting to understand the path to success.
i have always thought that studies was not really important or what so ever. to me, all i need was entertainment, fun, freedom and shits. you know what i mean. but now, as i grow older, i start to think wiser. don't believe? better believe it. freedom doesnt lead us anywhere. the key to success is to be disciplined, committment and foocuse. without any of these, theres no way we are going to see the light of our future instead, we are going to see darkness. which pretty much means failure. like duh!
i need to start planning and thinking, that means less slacking more studying. yes, i hope i could make it through. i wanna be a good man in the future. i wanna be a responsible head of family. i dont wanna go around asking for help from my family members or friends. i dont wanna grow up living in the slumps. please god, i wanna be a good guy, i swear i do. ahhhhhh! i dont wanna be a failure in life. i feel as if im one now. no matter what, i'll get back on my feet as quick as possible and mend the problems by myself.
for now, im starting this new thing in life. something i never did before. im trying to live in a healthy lifestyle by going to gym for at least 3 times a week. yes! i did. ive already went to the gym for like 3 weeks now and im starting to feel great! and yay, i think my aunt is going to buy a weight gainer for me. something that helps to gain weight rapidly. but, at the same time, we have to work out or else the muscles will turn to fats. i mean serious business man. i hope to have a beautiful body, maybe in the future. woo! haha.
i have a lot of people to thank to, for always helping me and guiding me in life. teaching me the pros and cons of life. my late mum, the most patient women ive ever seen. the one who taught me patience in life. no matter what the obstacle may be, stay strong and be patient. things will always go smoothly if youre patient. my aunt, the most supportive women ever. the one who has always been supporting me in whatever i do, the one who will always be there in times of failure or success. my late grandmother, the most loving and caring women ever. the one who is always loving me no matter how bad i am. the one who always tells me, " fahmi, please don't go home late okay.", "whose gonna wake you up im when im gone?''. she's my sweetest love, the one who always wakes me up every morning.
my honey, the most lovable and understanding girl ever. the one who will always be there for me. the one who guides me to the right path. the one who tells me never to stop trying and the one who shows me true love which i never knew before. last and not least, the rest of my family and friends who has been constantly supporting me. who has always been there for me in times of need. i love you all, with my deepest gratitude. thank you guys so fucking much. you're the best ever! till here. :)
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
hurts.
okay, im in school now and its such a bore. as usual, i slept late for the last 2 days. altogether i have less than 8 hours of sleep for 2 days. im feeling very unwell today apart from feeling tired and sleepy. i dont know why but my body's temperature went up when taking the temperature, 37.2. luckily i wasnt sent home. my head hurts and my body's getting warmer and warmer. i tend to feel like throwing up since yesterday but still i didnt mention it to anyone cause i didnt want anyone to trouble themself for me. since theres not many who knew my blog after i relinked it, i think i'd just express myself here.
no one would care to listen to me anyway. so please, i dont need anyone's concern towards me. im just worthless. all i need is some rest, but nevermind. i still wanna go to school for some reasons. fuck my health, i think i'll just sit right here staring my paper and not show of how im feeling inside, its killing me inside. you'll see me smiling. i hope i get better and well. i hate being sick. this feeling of throwing up sucks big time. okay, till here.
end this fucking life.
Thursday, July 2, 2009
R.I.P
May the king rest in peace. an icon to many, looked up upon. Michael Jackson, to us he is an icon, a king in the music scene. someone who makes a difference. his loss made a great impact on me, us and everyone. may god bless his soul with peace and prosperity. we missed him alot.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
different.
i've been missing out on things lately. the launch in KL went smoothly. i think i have spent most of my time for my band and stuffs and people are starting to feel neglected. and seriously, i need a break from music life. im so busy with the band that i have forgotten some of my role as a brother, son, boyfriend and stuffs. im too caught up. i guess that now with the launch done and gone, i guess its time for life and reality.
i need to spend my time wisely so that i wont neglect my family and girlfriend. i dont ever want them to be neglected. band is a big deal to me but still, my family and girlfriend are as important too. much more important than my band. im sorry if some have felt the neglect-tion if theres any such word. i think there is. i promise i'll plan my time wisely.
for now, i think i shall take a break maybe after this saturday's gig? spend my time with my girlfriend. and school is starting and im so not in the mood for schooling. H1N1 is spreading like fuck. god, please dont let my family and friends be affected by this disease. may this disease be destroyed once and for all.
baby, i promise that we'll get to spend our time together soon. you will have me by your side the whole day. hee. okay, ive got nothing more to update. blank as fuck. okay, see you party heads at the gig this saturday. have fun for the last week of hols. may god bless our wretched souls.
