Thursday, June 25, 2009
trip.
we'll be leaving for KL soon. this saturday. im pretty much excited about the trip. well, its my first time there going for a show. i hope everything goes smoothly. at the same time, a little nervous and stuff. pray for our safety. hope that we go and get back here safely. those who are coming, meet at bugis topman by 7. later than 7 then go yourself. haha. see you guys there.
Saturday, June 20, 2009
come.
im seriously not digging this hippie shit. its everywhere now. like someone said, "pakai tie dye je hippies uh?" haha. wtf. irritating fashion stateshit.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
demolish.
first off, thanks to every single one of you living maggots for doing your fucking part in life. for whatever shits you've done may your souls be blessed with hatred in your name. yes, hatred in your fucking name. ever wondered why? you dont deserve to fucking live. you bring sadness into peoples lives, not knowing that you yourself are in need of someone to guide you for. havent you fucking realise? you rely on people, you useless piece of shit. get it? piece of shit. you've been treated like a dog by your own bestest friend as what you called. a friend who leaves you whenever she finds another friend.
secondly, this is in your fucking face. this post really is for someone. not maybe someone but three. you bitches know nothing about life but instead ruining. you said you got problems of your own? well, let me see whens the last fucking time you have one? every single fucking day. you are just problematic as you are. havent you realised? like seriously, you people are giving hope to others and i dont fucking like it. your life is just too sad that you have to include people into your problems and drag them into it. you caused sadness and thats what im about to do with people like you. i hate seeing it, and i hate being in it.
thirdly, i dont fucking care of if youre close to that person. i dont fucking care if shes your friend. if she really is your friend, has she been there for you? for like ever? do you really think your relationship with that person is friendship? you think for your fucking self. a friend has your back at any point of time when you needed her, does she do that? or does she tell you to ever call your life full of love off? fuck it. dont expect me to give you people chances cause you never did give people chances dont you? a swarm of maggots. thats what you are.
fourthly, yes ive been you bestfriend before, been great friends. but you gotta fucking understand. i hate it, im pissed im angry. you havent seen me in any of those forms before so just back off. i dont give a fuck if your boyfriends or friends are a friend of mine. i dont give a fuck what he or she is capable of doing. i dont give a fuck what age he or she is. i dont give a fuck about anything about you, so the next time i hear you try to pull off some shit i swear to god that i'll beat the crap of your guy since icant beat the crap outta you. i swear, i promise i will. i just dont give a fuck, so you better stay back, seal your fucking lips, shut the fuck up. get it?
fifth, i love each and every one of my friends and family. bear this in your small empty minds. i love every one of them. i am very particular if anyone of you shit ass tries to do anything or what so ever shits to them. i really do. this will definitely trigger me off. i swear i'll send you fear down your spinal cords until you wont even dare to look me in the eyes the next time. you motherfucker. never ever think about doing anything cause to me, you are nothing but a piece of small harmless animal to me. you need to be fed, guided and then thrown away. yes you do. so, remind these bitches to mind their business cause this fucking game is very religious. motherfucker.
stay away, far away if possible. you better run, or you'll end up crawling. fuck you.
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
great.
opportunity only comes once in life. i mean, you dont live forever dont you? so, just grab whatever lies ahead. not giving shit to anything or anyone. for me, ive learnt alot. from shits to un-shits. ive learnt whatever to forever. for now, im thankful and greatful for everything that has happened. given to me love, and ive given to someone love. throughout the years, love has been the one bringing me down. to some fucking extent, its got me deeply into my heart. tears and shits, laughs and smiles.
now, the future and no longer looking back. i dont give a fuck. for i know, this time i wanna live my life to its fullest. no more looking back on the past, its the fucking present. present means more presents of life. get it? fuck it. im glad that i found you, now i dont give a fuck. you are my eternal light, giving me the strength to move on from whatever. showering me with the heaviest storm of love. i dont give a fuck for all the misunderstandings and arguments as long as i got you.
to know that you're here with me, youre a present that i will never forget. or are you just going to leave like the rest? i hope you wont, cause i believe in you. may you be my last, to be with me through everything in life. you see, love isnt always about presents, money, filth and sex. whatever, love is about sincerity and the willingness to sacrifice for someone. its like you're willing to die for someone. this is love. love knows no boundaries.
dont always count on beauty. trust me, beauty can deceive us all. yeah, who gives a fuck if you're beautiful but eventually you stink? your attitude stinks. for me, i dont mind getting a girl who isnt that pretty, as long as i know that shes good and nice. i know that she wont deceive me and stuffs. hey, grab every chances you get. sitting and waiting doesnt help. thats why im always the impatient type. who doesnt give a fuck about anything. but, i appreciate everything and anything.
thats about it, life is short. be happy, be true. you know who you are, you know what you want. as for me, ive already had and found what i want and need. so, why bother anymore? ive got her and everything set for me. fuck evrything, lets kill everyone in this fucking world. cause i know, you know everything that i know. whatever and shits, i love everyone. lets rule the streets motherfuckers!
Friday, June 5, 2009
man.
life would just chew you up, and then spit you back out. that would just be my mentality.
okay, firstly i fucking missed the pit yesterday. and im feeling very guilty for not coming. yeah, as for some reasons. im pretty tired and stuff. im sorry guys for not coming. i feel really bad. and yeah, i'll make it up to you guys. thonning outside are just not my thing these days. definitely nothing to do with having a relationship. its just that im just not into thonning anymore. maybe late nights but not thonning. some might know the reasons and some doesnt.
as i and my brother had to take care of my grandfather , who is no longer strong and capable of doing stuffs. we, have to take full responsibility in taking care of him. maybe, only weekends we can thon and stuffs. weekdays are hard as some of my family members are working and theres no one at home. that's my choice. a promise made upon my grandma's death, for which i and my brother will take care of my grandfather. i dont wanna fail doing so. so, that is why i havent been out for quite many times with friends. and if i ever have a chnce, for sure i will hang out with everyone soon.
its tough, but ive tried my best giving time for family, friends and even my honey. whatever, i hope evryone understands my situation. mum's no longer here, i miss her so much. dad's, well, he goes way back. he's in prison. yeah, that's me. my fucking life. drugs and fights landed him in there. and ive made this decision, whereby i wanna be the most responsible adult. to take care of everyone. my friends and family. no matter what situation im in, i'll always stand strong, smiling. never letting anyone see me in defeat. if anyone out there thinks that im away most of the times, not hanging out, doesnt mean i forget you.
some people has their mindset in the wrong way. thinking that their friends are maybe no longer like the past because mainly they have a girlfriend? fuck no. you guys just have to figure out the fucking truth behind it before making assumptions. that's just as bad as backstabbing. some of us just have bigger problems without you people knowing. i'd rather keep them to myself rather than having people feeling sorry for me. that's just who i am. you might see smile on your friend's faces, but you will never know how they feel inside. what are they going through. well, im definitely not referring to anyone. its just a post to make you know and realise. right? so fuck it, i love everyone of my friends.
honestly, my life is meaningless without friends. they made me happy, they cheer me up and make me stronger. fuck it, i just love my frinds and even my family. i'll do whatever, but not whenever. see you guys pretty soon. i promise. thanks to everyone who has always been by my side for years and years. thanks for fucking understand. and lastly, happy birthday to my beloved friend, alfee. though our frindship just started last year, i hope it continues to go strong and may our friendship last long. i love you very much! sorry for not coming for your birthday! but hey, be happy always bitch! love you!
here it goes, i'll always have your back, even if you dont hae my back. my principles are simple, everyone is my friends, even if you hate me or not. in the end, i dont fucking gain nor i fucking lose.
Tuesday, June 2, 2009
fight.
i think i might be beat,
i watch my blood hit the ground.
it's only been one ground,
beatdown and broken.
you can break my bones,
but you will never get a word outta me.
this is my life, my way.
this is me, fight for your life.
i am who i am, what i am.
that's nothing you can be.
so, dont fucking tell me what to do.
you're not my fucking judge.
that's who i am motherfucker.
if an injury has to be done to a man,
it should be done so severe that his
vengeance need not be feared.
to what fucking extent of violence
may he be inflicted upon so that
he realised and bring back the day
with him as a fucking memory.
the only way to solutions are,
violence, bloodshed to redeem your
pride and intergrity of those who
has stolen from us, our stand.
making them days outnumbered,
fearing themselves of what's to come.
let us stand out among the rest,
be feared and respected rather than
being pushed and kicked upon.
its our turn, our fucking war.
its time to stop these people from
bringing us down and no one can stop us.
have your fucking faith and pride.
believe in your fucking self.
never ever let anyone, any scum
bring us down, cause this is the time.
our time to rise against those who
conquered. fuck them, stand fucking strong.
Monday, June 1, 2009
crappy.
my neck hurts. due to headbanging.
yeah, i always try to give my best.
no pain, no gain right? who cares.
i fucking love myself, what i do.
still, who fucking cares? i do.
